Tuesday, August 5, 2008

I WISH I COULD SAY....

I wish I could say we are on the floor and all is well, but that is just not the case. I haven't posted for so long because I think a lot of you look to our blog for inspiration, but things just haven't been that great lately and it's hard to post. Teagan's lung just haven't been getting better, they are still full of junk and he breaths fast. On Saturday it was my birthday and my family tried to make it nice, we ate at the Point on Friday and then Sat. morning Scott took me to get a massage down at Foothill, my mom brought up lunch and Teagan had a ok day; then at 6:30 am Sunday morning we got the first of three calls that Teagan needed more support with his breathing, they put him on C-pap. Then they called again for permission to do a pic line. When me and Ryan got here on Sunday it was a sad sight, we both just had to cry, the C-pap was not the cute little beanie he had last time, it was full on Top Gun mask and head gear, I could barely see his eyes, he just looked miserable. Since then we have been running every test possible and so far none have come back positive. He keeps getting fevers and last night before we left his right foot got all red and hard and hot, not good! It has now been TWO weeks in the PICU for a 7-10 day recovery. We will keep running tests to figure things out, but right now we are discouraged and I am so scared, It just makes me cry. Lungs are the end of the road, if it was his heart we could try for a transplant, but his heart is good or so they say, but his lungs look the same after all they do. So many of our sweet-HEARTS have passed away because of lungs and it scares me, they feel like all he needs is time so we will give him that. Please pray and send your good wishes, that's about all you and I can do.

20 comments:

summer said...

So sorry to read your post and find you with a sad heart today. I always say "did I really sign up for all this?" Heavenly Father knows what an amazing mother you are and he wouldn't have sent Teagan to be cared for by anybody else!! Hang in there and read Teagan his train book to give him a liitle inspiration and motivation. We are praying for Teagan and your Family.

Love, Summer (Mason's Mommy)

Chase said...

I wish I could say something to make it better. I can't. I'm sorry.

I wish I could say i'm sorry you have to deal with this, but I can't. For a reason we don't know and probably can't understand, you've been chosen to deal with this. Sounds cold, I know. I'm not dealing with it; none of us are.

In this trial we've come to know and read about a different, more enduring, Pettit family.

I continually think about how it must feel for you. I can't. I'm sad and wish we could give you a hug and some encouragement - because that's all there is.

I've come to know in my life, and I believe it to be true, that we have pain and suffering to help us to be mindful of the sufferings of our Lord. After all we suffer, after all of our torments, trials, and tribulations - the Savior suffered more. And because he has, we will all be redeemed.

My father reminded me the other day (amidst my own trials) that a majority of our blessings will come after this life is over. I say this with tears in my eyes. It's so hard. It's so trying. It's a bitter cup for all of us, especially for you - at this time. The only thing that sweetens is redeeming grace. Then will our sorrows be removed. Then will we be made whole.

"And if thou shouldst be cast into the pit, or into the hands of murderers, and the sentence of death passed upon thee; if thou be cast into the deep; if the billowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to hedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of hell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good. The Son of Man hath descended below them all. Art thou greater than he?"

We will pray for you, that you may be supported. That angels (yes angels) will be round about you to bear you up.

We will pray for your son. We will pray for the support staff and doctors.

We will pray the Lord's will be done - in all things.

Above all else, our Father in Heaven is mindful of you and your sufferings. He has not forgotten you.
He loves you.
He loves you.
He loves you.

Roll'in with the Rowley's said...

Oh Brytt
I am so sorry to hear about Teagan. I have to agree with Summer, Heavenly Father knows you and your ARE an amazing mother. I sit here with tears wondering what I can do. I want you and Ryan to know that we pray every night for Teagan. If I could only be half the mother you have been. Your strength and spirit inspire me so much. Again you are an AMAZING person with an AMAZING family. My heart is heavy for Teagan and all the heartache his illness brings. Seeing his little body having to endure so much brings me to tears. I just want you to know we think about you all daily and we too plead with Heavenly Father to bless Teags!

Love Heather

Chelsee said...

hugs and kisses to all of you.

Tami Acord-Nelson said...

Brytt, I am here for you, not close but here all the same. I am thinking and praying for you and I wish I could be there to help out with anything. Uggghhh. I will pray harder for you and I will tell all the little mamcitas to pray here for you as well.
Whisper to Teags that we are waiting to play with him on the beach, Thatcher wants to build castles and eat sand with him.
Love you guys,
Tami

val said...

we'll continue to pray for your sweetheart.

Aunt Jodi said...

Brytt, I check your blog everyday. and I'm so sorry to hear that teagan isn't doing so well. I want you to know that you are in my prayers. I truely love you and your mom. and pray the lord will send you strength. God Bless.
Jodi Howard

Natalie Jensen said...

I am so sorry that Teagan is struggling. We continue to pray for him daily (even Xander prays for him at night). I can't imagine how helpless you must feel. You help more than you know, though. You are such a strength to him and your family. He may not be able to tell you now, but one day he will hold you and tell you how much he love you and appreciates all you do and have done for him. We love you guys!

candice peterson said...

WOW that is a lot to take in. I'm sorry. Thsi time no news was not such good news. Prayers and thoughts are aways with you and even stronger in these times of trials. Hang in there. someday you will consider this a blessing. Remember we love you and your family and are hoping for a remarkable comeback!!

Candice

Marye said...

I love you! I have come to see more and more that life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain. You have all been "incredible" through the trials placed in your path for many months. The Lord knows what you are capable of... even when we don't see it! You guys are strong. You will make it through.

Stoney and Jen said...

Teagan is an incredible fighter from what we've all seen. We pray that he will continue to fight and that you and Ryan and all of your families will be carried. Stay strong and know you are surrounded by prayers and hope for Teagan.

Love, Jen

The Scott & Christie Hardey Family said...

I'm sorry things still aren't going very well. I know this is a hard time for you guys. Please don't feel like you have to inspire us. We are here to cheer when things go well and suffer when things don't. We want to know what's going on with out bugging you too much with phone calls. We love you guys and are praying constantly for you.

Anonymous said...

Some times you will wish you were a plane or a car but be happy to be a train...sorry I know thats not the exact wording but I hope you get the point.
Love Ya
Coke aka Elmo

Seth said...

Please don't be afraid to post. We want to know how you're doing. There are a lot of people that are here to be the inspiration you need to get through this. You don't need to be the inspiration for everyone else. You already are.
It's okay to be afraid, okay to cry, okay to not understand. Someday we will understand. Until then, just experience it. Be there for your baby, but don't forget to take care of yourself. I'm glad you got a treat for your birthday. You can't be strong for your baby unless you take care of yourself.
So many people are praying for you; if you can, try to recognize what that feels like. It doesn't take the burden away at all, but somehow it doesn't quite seem so heavy-- it's really un indescribable feeling.

mommyof2 said...

it is meg(shay's wife). I am always thinking of you guys. You are still an inspiration to all of us. Aren't we so grateful for the gospel. I will continue to pray for you and your cute little family. We love you guys.

Eric and Allana said...

We love you guys more than you will ever know! You are so strong and such an inspiration to many people. Please give Teag's a hug and kiss for us.

Mike and Rebecca said...

I'm glad to see an update, I'm sorry to hear that Teagan is having such a rough time. Please know that we all thinking and praying for his recovery. I'm also glad to hear what a wonderful support system you guys have in place...please let us know if we could help you in some way.

With Many Thoughts & Prayers,
Mike & Family

Diane Feinauer said...

Our family is thinking of little Teagan and praying for a better day tomorrow. These little heart kids are so strong and have such amazing spirits. Stay strong, we are fasting for little Daxton tomorrow, so we will keep Teagan in our prayers.

Warm wishes,
Diane Feinauer
IHH

Michele said...

My heart aches for you. I was really getting worried when you weren't posting. I hope you don't think your blog has to be inspirational all the time. People need to know about the bad times so we can pray extra hard for you! I don't know if anybody can say anything to make you feel better but Gracie's lungs looked really bad for a long time, weeks I think. It just took a long time for them to get better but they did. She also had the respiratory therapists working on her every few hours to 'thump' the gunk out of them. If Gracie can pull through then her boyfriend Teagan sure can! I am thinking about you daily and check all the time to see how you are doing. Keep the faith.

Kathy said...

I am sorry things aren't going well, I will be praying for a quick recovery. I am glad you had a good birthday, don't forget to take care of yourself to be strong for your little boy.